how can i on the one hand be personable, engaging, intelligent, fun
and on the other be an absolute twat. almost imbecilic.
how can i be so dull, stupid. about things, people, events-in my life
which i ought to be clear-eyed about. most knowing. what is the science in this
exactly. How does it work, and why does it.
taking shit i know i shouldn’t be.
???? ? ??? ???