ooooooH!

I used to be a cat—in my next life (insert:dec 3rd)

black pussy cats are angelic
black pussy cats are angelic

oooooooooooooooooooooooHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stayed up all night to have lunch with him.

My first snow is falling!

and I am sixteen again. Just until I get walk out of here

………………………………………………………………

How tasty is yogurt on whole wheat bread?! ooooooooh.

The Italians would be offended!

…………………………………………………………………

I need 150 euros now. coz i need seriously must get a jacket, or fall down and die. i could just stand frozen

……now i dont want a jacket, i want flirt with that prospect. Freezing to the bone.

…………………I will keep adding to this.

I love this story. 

………………. I am really sleepy. I cant go 24 +12 hours. 

……………..

My keys fell through the lift. I felt them leave my hands, i saw them go. and i just stood there

and waited. What for. no idea. Cling. cling. clingggggggg.  

It was saturday afternoon. Evening actually. it was about 7.30pm. I had been away all night and all day. 

I needed my house; sweet, warm and cosy. I had a hangover, from so many things. Friday night saturday morning. some one played that song, and i was like; yep. my life is big lilly allen like song. (its not Lilly Allen’s song that one).

My head was spinning from the chocolate festival that i had walked through earlier in the day. I was a little neausatious from that annoying guy who was singing really. really badly. That i forgot about Geremia being an amazing drummer. Crazy and animated. With two of his electronic guitar playing friends, one of whom knowlesy said he looked like he was mustarbating. Was like no…and then he (knowlsey) reneacted ( not because i disagreed, put to visually supliment his story) and it was hard not to laugh. He did look like he was mustarbating. by the bathroom window, looking out at the bell tower of the church. The one guitar boy.

I wished i had seen this earlier, maybe i would have enjoyed this gig more. But that singing guy was annoying. I am annoying, when i sing (among other melodious activity). So i know when some one is an annoying singer. I went out. Stood in the cold with my jacket off. 

…………………………

okay that was wierd. my boss. Higher than my like seven other bosses, just had like 40 second meeting with me; which started—–well——, and ended with if am happy. work. love. time difference ……

……….just been interrupted again. 

………Tunadamu.

still sleepy

……………………..New. new. new. new. (I need neon lighting for that)

Bruce Sterling is giving a workshop. here. I am not going to attend it. none of the writers is. We are busy with work. i just had him speak for about 30 minutes. answering the final first questions.  I say fuck it. I am going to finish all of my work today. Another 24hrs. I must try and attend some of it.

………………………….

Am reading Anthony Burgess. A clockwork Orange. We bought it a few months ago. I figured i should be done with it by christmas. Second owner will need it then. 

I think this is the kind of book and Author am going to study. deeply.

He’s become my official number three on the list:

1. Michelangelo Antonioni

2.Marlon Brando

3. Anthony Burgess

:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::I need to attend Bruce Sterling’s workshop. He said something this morning about Damien Hirst’s skull. Something that came to my mind the very first time i saw the skull. Am sure some one else would say/think the same. yeah. I would try and attend their workshop.

Enough sentiments. Back to work. 

Happy tuesday.

– i will add to that

………………….

I don’t have Allen Ginsberg on that list, because. Because Allen Ginsberg is not to be studied. He is not to be taken seriously. He is the virtual love of my life right now. The man i turn to  when (Pete & I) are wasted out of our heads, in the middle of dawn. The voice i switch on, in my head, when my work, purpose, and all Overwhelm me. He is my voice. my words. Oh, how i would sell my non-tormented soul for that to be true.

I will forever love Pete for introducing me to him. I knew him before Pete, yes I did. But not like I do now. Not this intimately.

Scott gave me Howl in one of his very many sweet goodbye gift hampers. We had searched for the book everywhere. and couldn’t find it. not in english. And he just printed it out for me. Lottie had done this before. for our trip to Trieste. I didnt expect Scott to do this coz I never discussed Ginsberg with him. not at length, not like I did about Antonioni.   well. it was a sweet. and I will keep the print outs until I find the book. And after I find the book. Howl and Other Poems

later

26th nov.

Listening to Bob Dylan and Joan Baez

Listening to Ben Harper

great music….sending me into a hole too small i have to coil around myself to fit in. Head first. no lighting.

I will improvise with the glistening of my tears. For lighting.

later

1st December:

the year is on its way out. am on my bed. with my shoes on. i hate doing this….on bed with my shoes on… but they have shoelaces, and its such a process to get them off and get them on again. Am going out to dinner with one or two of the guys in two hours or so. I cant take my shoes off coz am not in the mood for the process of having them back on….

Seriously, am i blogging about putting my shoes on?! I feel like am in P.3 trying to get my shoes on again (this is how i feel every time i put them on.)

…………………………………………

I am depressed tonight. I have been  depressed the entire day. I know why. but i wont get into because i dont want to acknowledge it yet. Its work related… Oh, shoot. i’ve some work related email to send.

later

————3rd December

HAPPY HOLIDAYS----(count down's started)   Helma & Laura: Holland
HAPPY HOLIDAYS----(count down
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3 Comments Add yours

  1. the antipop says:

    i do not know how many times i will say this, but i love how you write. and not only because i am waiting fro a present from italy come may…but really, you have a way of sucking me into uyour twisted.

  2. 31337 says:

    i made it to the comments this time. *pats self on back*

    random way of writing sort of together then again not. yet to decide whether i like it. antipop just because you said it does not mean i do too. 🙂

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