It seems like forever since i was last here (worst mother of the year…. thank you, thank you). But while i was away i never stopped thinking of and about you, my lovely Little Jars. so today i come, not with a bag full of sweets or even nsenene, but with nice, juicy, and some depressing stories to share with you.
Let’s start with today.
Today i made a prayer, one which i really want to be answered (positively) by the end of the week. Its one of those things; first you want it, then you think you dont, then you know you want it. Really bad. and then, you start panicking. “Is it too late? did that negative thinking interfere with good Karma? Dear Lord….”
Again today, a collegue told me something she wasnt supposed to tell me, something i wasnt supposed to know yet. I am supposed to pretend that i have no idea, when eventually i am officially told/asked.
She meant well but still, i know something i wasnt yet supposed to know and its consuming all my healthy time; worrying, wondering, contemplating- “should I?”
Any how, i picked an interesting piece from Mark’s desk and now here, lets share it.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure
It is our light, not our darkness that most frighten us
We ask our selves; who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented fabulous?
Actually who are you not to be?
You are a child of God Your playing small does not serve the world
There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other
people wont feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us.
Its not just in some of us, it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people a chance to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others”
By Marriane Wilson, from her book A return to Love:
Reflections on the principle of a course in miracles.